So I've been fighting with Kendall for over 24 hours now. This is the worst fight we've ever had. I've been hopped up on hormones all week and I'm nervous as hell about this whole procedure this week. On top of all of that Kendall tells me he's not taking his boards til August....which we've been fighting about for the last year and he SAID he was going to take them in June.
This all led to much bigger issues about how he doesn't tell me things and most importantly how I've been feeling second best to his job. And I'm really tired of it. I really need him to prove to me that I'm the number one thing in his life and that if I need him, he's going to be there. Because lately I haven't felt that way at all.
On top of all of that, we've actually been fighting over the phone all day because of course...he's at work. I'm just so tired of it. My whole life is on hold because of his. And it's physically and emotionally draining.
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I feel your pain- believe me. Residency sucks (more for the family than for the resident).
I feel your frustration somewhat - I know that Trey wasn't in the real Navy, but there were still times that he job took precedence over anything else. Yes, the Navy sent us to Italy, but it meant we lived around his schedule. For our first year there I didn't see him for half of September, and had to get everything unpacked myself. With the whole getting out thing, they lost the paperwork and when they found it gave us not very much time to get ready to go - I didn't have enough time to get a job before I had to start working, so now I'm doing invoicing all day and feeling a little lost because of it. I know your situation is different, but it's probably similar on a frustration level.
Husbands who don't tell their wives things are pretty common, too. Even Trey, who's really good at communicating for the most part, will keep stuff to himself so I assume he's feeling a certain way or thinking along certain lines...when it finally drives me crazy I snap, end up crying, and it's probably pretty traumatic for both of us.
Anyway, I didn't mean to go on and on. I hope you feel better and things get better soon. Call me if you want and we'll have a pity party. :-)
Sorry to hear that you and Kendall have been fighting. I obviously can't really comment on being married, but I do know that Kendall is a good man and loves you very much. So hang in there, it'll work out.
Sorry to hear that this past week was rough one. I've been there and done that with work taking 1st place in the hubby's life. If you ever need someone to hang with or even just for someone to vent to... call me. :-D
Lisa,
I know what it is like being in your situation. Clomid and other fertility drugs really take effect even w/out you even realizing it. I fought with Tom, accused him of not really wanting a baby at all after all "I'm" going through, and had a breakdown at work, crying and yelling at my boss! I'll tell you, it felt so right at the time, but afterwards, I just feel worse. Hang in there and know, for the most part, it is the drugs that are screwing with your head! I seriously thought I was suffering from depression,badly, until I stopped all the fertility meds. The stress is unimaginable unless you have gone through this before. Now that we almost have our baby from Guatemala, can I actually be happy for people who announce they are pregnant. I really feel for you and what you're going through. I would not wish infertility on my worse enemy.
Good luck with the insemination...
Melissa
i think you deserve a pedicure and a strong margarita. destress yourself as much as possible so the odds are in your favor with the insemination.
we're all pulling for you - for the baby, for your relationship, for your sanity! :) *hugs*
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