Thursday Thirteen

13 Thoughts on My Brain...

1. I used to think that the bad kids were the worst part of being a teacher. Conferences remind me on a bi-annual basis that it's the bad kids' parents that are the worst part of being a teacher.

2. I do not like the dark coming this early this year. I usually do. This year I don't.

3. I'm having a "down" school year. The kids are draining me. They're really high maintenance this year. I feel like I'm running constantly.

4. I'm mad at the tv writers for striking. I get that they want more money. They might deserve it even. But damn it, my TV is what gets me through the week. I'm going to be pissed if it goes off the air.

5. I have done ZERO Christmas shopping. I have no desire to even START shopping.

6. It does not feel like Thanksgiving is coming next week. I think it's the weather.

7. I want to quit my job and stay home all day. Yeah, that's how tiring work feels this year. I don't want to clean or cook or organize. I just want to sit home and do nothing. All day long. How many more days til summer vacation?

8. I haven't spoken to most of my friends in weeks. I feel so tired at the end of the day that all I want to do is come home, lay down, read a book, eat, and watch TV with Kendall. Sometimes we don't even talk that much. We just exist together. In a good way.

9. I have two ten dollar GAP cards burning a hole in my wallet. I need to hit the outlet malls on Sunday.

10. We made some new friends at of all places, Sake Japanese Steak House in Vandalia. We met them a few weeks back when we were out with our next door neighbors. We just had dinner with them again this week and had a great time. It's always refreshing to meet new people. They don't know any of your old stories. Esp the funny ones. So you get to be the interesting, funny person for a while. Does that sound weird?

11. I'm having a bad baby month. I feel like I'm surrounded by women who are pregnant or just had a baby. Could I please hang out with some people who don't have kids? Oh wait, we're the last people we know that don't. I think it's the holidays. I kept saying to myself last year at this time, "No more holidays without a baby." And I failed. It sucks. Oh wait, it could also be the 50 mgs of Clomid I took this morning. *sigh* Stupid hormones.

12. I'm frustrated with the invisible dog fence. I thought the dogs would have picked up on it sooner. It's been a month and I still don't trust them to not run through the fence into the street. I hope they get it soon. I'm tired of having those little flags all over my yard!

13. Don't count on me to post or read your blogs right now. I suck. I'm busy and tired and a crappy friend. I didn't even know Buster died. It made me cry. Why? Because I felt bad that I didn't know. It would be like Morrie dying and nobody noticing. Which is another thing I can't stop thinking about. He's getting old. He trips up the stairs a lot now and sometimes at night when he breaths funny, I have to get up to make sure he's okay because I'm afraid he'll die while we're sleeping and be all alone.

Okay, I have to go now. The combination of fatigue and hormones is getting to me.